18.

take me to the sky

11:59 PM The kind of disappointment is definitely there.
But, result's fixed. There's nothing I can do.
Currently not in the main band for the pnc concert.
Will still be performing. For the second half I heard.
Dint do well for the audition today of course..
I seriously need to improve alot. But no guidance.
Don't know lah..

There's always an angel and devil telling me things at one go.
ANGEL: Yes go for practices so that you can improve.
DEVIL: Aiya dun go lah. Go there waste time.
Somehow, this is tearing me apart.
I just so disappointed in myself today.
WAKE ME UP SOMEONE!

Went totally moodless after they announced the results.
And tadah, thanks Xing Ting! for your concern.
She came over to ask if I'm alright. (:
Thanked her but I doubt she'll see it. Haha.
Left for home straight after that.
Anyway, was around EC's house and wanted to call her down for dinner.
She dint pick up my call. Returned call only hours later?
Haha. Cus she was sleeping. -.- But nvm lah, next time perhaps.

Tutorials undone. Haha.
Just lazy to complete them.
But somehow, it's needed to be Forced done.
If not, I'll just die of lack of marks for final exam.
Haha. Make myself be in school Mondays to Fridays from next week onwards.
Friends, remember that. KILL ME if I'm not in school.

I thought everyone should be good in a thing/ some things.
But I realised I'm never good in anything.
It's time you people tell me what I'm good at.
Don't tell me eating. It isn't a positive point.
Take my last point, I'm not always happy at home.


You stole my innocence and beat my heart
Left me feeling worthless; Torn right apart.
I should have realized the truth.
But I was running blind & now, the price I have to pay.